Maybe you’re not a bucket list person or a word of the year person or even a “let’s make a goal and write in my mirror” person. I will say that being pregnant again has really shifted some priorities for me.
Namely, that it’s time for me to get serious (in a super fun way, of course) about my life and what God wants me to do in 2014.
For the last four years, we’ve been moving from fire to fire, putting them all out with Luke. There are still fires to fight, but I sort of feel like they’re manageable now. Or, maybe it’s because I know my limitations, when to freak out and when to just let it go. Perspective is a funny thing.
I’ve been thinking about having a word to really define my year. It began with establishing my spiritual board of directors. And, after reading Lisa’s post today over at CatholicMom.com I became even more convicted about my 2014 word of the year.
Yes, I’d like to do that in the literal sense. Photography has always been something I love (just ask my mom and my 40-billion scrapbooks from high school and college). After taking my first photography class in 2012, I finally fell in love with it again.
But, in the more figurative sense, I feel like I’ve lost my focus. Like I’ve been running around trying to be all things, to all people, all the time. I’ve always been a Type A doer. Nothing to be ashamed about there. At least I don’t think there is. However, it’s time for me to really start asking myself the question: does this “yes,” this activity, this outing, this venture really help me become the best version of myself?
The biggest thing off my plate has been giving up my blogging gig at PreemieBabies101 and I also cut back my obligations to just once a month for Austin Catholic New Media. I recently told some clients I can no longer do work for them. It was just no longer a good fit for their goals and my talents. I volunteered less at school and I even (insert gasp here) deleted the 23 emails I received for the Christmas party class requests without reading a single one.
Oh, yes I did.
Don’t misunderstand me. I’m not giving it all up because an extrovert just can’t do that. It’s crazy talk. But, I am searching and hoping and praying that I focus on the things that matter most to me this year. That I focus on my gifts and talents and how they can best be used. That I focus on the things I love about motherhood – celebrating birthdays, planning family outings, making our house a home, writing about motherhood and providing rich experiences for my kids. And, that I worry less about the things I don’t enjoy.
I’ve come to realize that this blog is my spiritual outlet. Some people pray to God, I write to Him. I also decorate the house for Him, plan rocking parties and organize the heck out of the blessings he bestows on us. It’s how I roll.
Whether you get all official and have a word for yourself or not, I think we all owe it to ourselves to find our “one thing.” You know, the thing that we really want to improve in ourselves this year. It’s a new start. A clean slate. There are many paths to God, and my path is different than yours.
If you have a word this year, I’d love to hear it. And, if you’re all, “Kathryn, that’s ridiculous. Let’s just drink a margarita!” then let me be the first to invite myself over. You know, after April 30.