It’s been a while since I blogged. Not in the literal sense. Yeah, I guest posted this week and wrote a few venting blogs over the weekend, but I haven’t really blogged like the old Kathryn in a really, really long time.
At least it feels that way to me. For the record, I really miss her. She was funny (sometimes) and honest (always) and herself.
This week I read a great article about motherhood and contentment, or lack thereof, over on Catholic Mothers Online. It came at just the right moment.
Comparison not only kills contentment, it kills our spirit. I feel like I’ve been doing way too much comparing lately, that and quite a bit of second-guessing.
I’ve been second guessing my ability to successfully run my business, keep up with the kids activities, their grades, their medical diagnoses, my marriage, all while feeding my spiritual appetite. I guess you could say I’m in a funk.
I’ve been frustrated with design and organization projects that are in limbo or only in my brain. Will I ever have time to get to them all? Probably not.
I’ve been worried about two of my boys, Luke and John Paul. Luke is a given, right? John Paul is a new one to the scene. I don’t think it’s anything too serious, it’s just I’m a mama bear trying to protect her cubs. That’s what moms do best.
We’ve had awesome things happen around here, too. Will rocked in his basketball game last night and scored four points – so. proud. Anna-Laura lost her first two teeth and it was a major social event. I forgot to blog about Luke almost crashing the Eucharistic Prayer during Christmas Eve Mass (how did I forget to blog about that!?!)
I think I’m feeling disconnected. Perhaps, like the article reminded me, I need to focus more on comparing myself to the only family that matters – the Holy Family. As always, Lent will be a welcome reprieve from Christmas. Don’t get me wrong, I love Christmas, but I also crave the simplicity, the absence of “stuff”, the penitent heart that is born during that season. For the first time in a very long time, I am craving less, not more.
Without a doubt, I know what WILL pull me out of my funk. A birthday party. Yup, John Paul turns EIGHT this weekend. Oh, Lordy, how can that be? He is such a fun kid. No really. He’s the total life of the party at our house. His birthday celebration will be a blast and I’m not sure yet who’s more excited his momma or him. No worries, I’ll be back in the blogging saddle again next week. I think I just needed the week off 🙂 Make it a great weekend!