You might recognize that quote from a recent entry over at Humans of New York. HONY is one man’s story of his camera, what he sees and who speaks to him on the streets of New York City.
It is, hands down, the best thing on the Internet.
People really do say the darndest things. But, more importantly, it’s opened my eyes to things and thoughts that are important to know, important to feel. Currently, he’s profiling patients of the Kettering Cancer Center. It is as hard, and poignant, to read as one would imagine.
But that quote, “We are this, because of that,” really got me. It took me back to September 2009 and then immediately fast-forwarded me to today.
We are this.
Because of that.
If I could take away all the pain, all the suffering, all the heartache, all the tears – I would do it. I think. The thing is, I would take it all away if I could still remain the Kathryn that I am today. The one that knows suffering, for she has felt it. The one that knows love, because she almost lost it. The one that is learning to love deep and wide, because God willed it.
However, I’m not sure that’s possible. It’s not that I desire to relive that experience or have someone else walk that path. But y’all. The Kathryn you see today, the one you read and who (sometimes) makes you cry/laugh/whoop would not exist, if not for that.
Today? Today I choose gratitude. Life’s sufferings are coming. They’re inevitable. Rather than brace myself like I’m preparing for the tidal wave to hit, I think I’ll lean into the joy of today. I’ll soak it in, like the sun’s bright rays. That sunshine and warmth will carry me through the desert when it comes.
For that, I’m sure.
We are this. Because of that. And I think you might be, too.